In the tradition of revealing my hard parts so as to not be ashamed about them, I’m here to say that I have hardly done a single thing in the past three days.
We went on a vacation and since getting back I’ve not gotten dressed until today. (As an aside, it was the weekend, it was cold and snowy here in Massachusetts, and I also had a cold.)
I sometimes have a hard time transitioning.
Finally, today, I got myself up and dressed. I washed my face and put on a little makeup.
And, doing this has made me feel a bit more connected to the world and a bit less stuck.
Last night, I told myself that I needed to get up and dressed and out the door today which helped prepave the road, so to speak.
I’m really just here to acknowledge that I’m feeling that it’s a bitch to have a hard time motivating myself to do the things that many neurotypical people just do, like bloody getting dressed!
But I know enough about how I operate to approach this hard starting part today by taking things a little at a time. And, I’m lucky/blessed in everyday life to have the space to do that. So, my plan is to take my own advice and be gentle and compassionate with myself as I go through this hard part today. I know from experience that I’ll feel better tomorrow.
I often have a hard time coming back from a vacation away from the city life. Coming back is a hard start. I moved to the edge of the countryside to find a compromise. Today I didn’t want to get dressed; I started saying to myself how i hate shoes and clothing. Then I said to myself, if I didn’t wear clothes things would be *even weirder* LOL. That helped. There are things much harder to start. No need to beat ourselves up over mere clothing.
Very funny! Mere clothing!